As a child and teenager, I suffered from severe irritability. I felt like a ticking time bomb ready to go off if someone said or did something to trigger me. It was rare if I didn’t wake up irritated and frustrated.
But these intense feelings I felt were the result of what was going on inside of me, creating perpetual stress.
On an unconscious level I was attached to anger, frustration, fear and sadness to many people without realizing it.
This was because at different points in my past I felt these people had hurt me through their words and actions.
Though it was me that was still holding onto those painful experiences, because I didn’t know how to process them.
Those experiences were kind of like undigested food rotting in my stomach, creating all kinds of different problems.
Those unprocessed negative experiences were telling my central nervous system (CNS) on an unconscious level to be in a state of fight or flight all the time, causing me to feel terrible.
This made it very hard for me to relax and feel comfortable with myself and others.
Physically, this affected my sleep, digestion and caused my body to feel tense and tight all the time.
At the time, I had no idea that I was still being affected from past experiences until I did this….
Quieted my mind and listened through meditation.
When I first began meditating at age 20yrs old, I had a flood of negative feelings, thoughts and images arise to my consciousness. It was quite scary and intimidating at first.
But, I quickly learned an EXERCISE (listen to it below) that was centred around focusing on loving myself and other people.
This powerful exercise helped me process the painful experiences, so I could finally overcome the pain they were causing me.
It helped me to realize that I needed to forgive the people that hurt me and send love to them (including myself).
All the negative feelings I was creating on a day to day basis were creating so much tension in my body that they were continually creating a toxic state for myself.
As a result the physical, mental and emotional symptoms quickly resolved.
Clearing the stress in my mind also enhanced my intuition because it was no longer being blocked by stress and negativity.
When I decided to stop and observe, rather than reacted to every thought and feeling I experienced, it allowed me to create change.
Looking back at it now I find it amazing how simple it was to process the old emotional pain when I decided to let love in and let go.
If you are anything like I was, the following Loving Kindness Exercise may be one of the most important things you do for your healing and moving forward with your life.